So many things are happening now already, too many changes and I'm getting cold feet. Out of a sudden, i've already finished my o levels, i'm going to prom, i'm going to graduate, i'm going to collect my results and i'm going to a whole new environment. i don't want to change. i don't want to graduate. i don't like to step into a whole new environment with no sense of security. so many changes are occuring now. i don't want to lose my friends. i know, for sure, once we graduate, we won't talk as much as before. i was really hurt, when he told me about their reactions. all i did and said was what i really meant. i thought that was what all friends did, girls getting excited and stuff. but they intepreted it wrongly. i really feel so hurt, i thought we were good friends. and what the shit, i'm crying cause of it. i seriously love all of them so much, when i treat people as my friends, i will protect and love them with all my might. i really do. the late night calls, the usual bickering, it's already what i'm used to and i dont want it to change. no matter how good new friends are, it's just different. i'm just crying way too much these days. i really hate all the changes that's happening now. why is everything going so fast, i can't catch up. don't wanna stay behind but i don't want to look forward either. can't i just stay in my own comfort zone, everything will just remain the same as it is before? i really hate this. fuck life. seriously. people are telling me that im thinking too much. how cna i not think so much? i dunno i think i need to calm down but. i really cant. im really afraid of the future
Why must my aim for going to yonsei to study be linked directly to my kpop fandom? That's only what you assumed, that im going to korea to study is because i wanna go see them. Do you really think that I'm THAT dumb? Use your ass to think also will know, by that age and time, they will no longer be popular and I will already grow out of this stupid fandom, or not. Okay, I won't say you're totally untrue about your assumption, my aim does has something to do with them. It's because of them, I'm more interested in the korean culture, are you not?
I'm really so sick and tired of your high and mighty talk. All your saying about drawing a very clear line between things and stuff. Like seriously, you do? Who's the one screaming their head off?
I really dunno what made me feel like this, I think i've changed unknowingly, I don't like this. I want things to go back the way it was, I hope I will change back after our trip together. Friends to me, are important. Although I don't know you that long, to me all of you are very precious to me even if I don't show it or don't talk to you that much. All of us are part of this special family, I can't do with losing any one of you and I really hate it when I see any one of you feels down and I can't help. I really sucks at expressing myself. I don't know how to let all of you know how much I love you guys.
I think I'm pms-ing. i fucking hate this.
ade, i miss you so much. i miss our roti prata suppers after chingay i miss hanging out and slacking during rehs i miss everything.
i hate it when time changes everything. really sucks. now, i miss 4a1. I DONT WANT US TO GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS. i want us to stay the way we are now. retaining together. i hope the class chalet will be a success. i want to be able to reminisce about it in the future be proud to say, i'm a forayeone-r
Ah, totally explains your reaction the other time. I'm a petty person, I do not forgive completely. ^^ It doesn't help that she's from the country that is on my top ten hated list. Seriously, [insert country's name] sluts are all english fail and annoying. Sluts. (: All three I know, all three are sluts. Hmmm.
祝你們永浴愛河，白頭偕老. If you even understand what it means, rofl.
DON'T HOTLINK. ASK BEFORE TAKING. I'll hunt you down with my chair I tell you...
CAN YOU TELL ME WHY IS HAE SO HOT. The teaser is like, asdf lkjasdf lkj asdflkj sdfk. Can you keep a secret? Throughout the teaser (and after seeing the teaser photos), I was actually thinking, _______________. Crazy right, what a teaser can do to you. Even shaking his hand looks damn hot. Not to say Siwon biting his glove and adjusting it while giving a killer stare. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Zhoumi, Henry and Kyuhyun is hot like !@#$%^ and Kyuhyun has long fingers. >=]
copied and pasted from LJ. read there for full post and icons!
had a really weird dream last night. i wore my heels and dressed really nicely, somehow i went back to school to the library for some literature thing that i wasn't involved, i merely accompanied someone there. after that, we have to move tables into the room. i was wearing heels and walking very steadily to and fro. -.- i remember faintly the existence of zhengning and jiahui and one of zhengning's friend (which i doubt is really her friend irl) in my dream.
somehow or rather, i met bryan chan and his group, wasn't very friendly i must say. then i saw another group of ppl but i can't remember who. joel and another friend was sitting at another table and i made him let me try what he was eating. omg crazy please.
i remember telling melissa in my dream that if i can even carry tables to and fro the library, i would have no problem walking in heels during prom. which doesn't really make sense. -.-
AH. stupid me.
oh, i dreamt that he replied to my fb status with a -.-
There are just so many things screwed up this year, can't I get any peace these days?
O levels are coming and I'm like so fucked up already. Then my dad just can't stop nagging, it's not like I wanted an ear infection, what's the point of telling me "You better eat your medicine otherwise if you're going for a surgery it's not my problem anymore". I'M EATING MY MEDICINE RIGHT? I'M EVEN EATING THOSE BIGASS ANTIBIOTICS ALREADY, what else do you want me to do? I'm the one taking O levels, not you. You don't even know what I do every second, what makes you think I didn't study? Just because you didn't see doesn't mean I didn't do it. Few days ago, Zero ridiculously scolded me for nothing and wanted me to get out of his life just because of a stupid facebook comment and because he's lost. Fuck, you're not the only one having a hard life, you don't see people asking their friends to get out of their life for no apparent reason. Even if they do, they didn't mean it, you did - at that point of time. Now there's this of Jaebum issues, what's wrong if them fucking korean netizens. Go do some charity and earn some good deeds for your life. Are you jealous that they got through the auditions with their talent and you didn't? THEN TOO BAD. Stop trying to dig out their past to force them to leave the entertaintment industry. There's a reason why they are up there and you're stuck in your home typing furiously away at your pathetic computer flaming them. Stop acting like a sourpuss. Digging up their past is one matter, what's with showing only their bad side? Be objective! You're being bias, so are you so intent on making Jaebum leave Korea? People have their bad times and they type stupid things. Why so picky. Right now, Jaebum's on the plane and all you can do is say you are regretful of what you guys have done. WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT. argh.
ps. sorry to zero for bringing it up again. it's not suppose to mean tht way. so if you take it the wrong way, then too bad. not in my best mood now to give a damn.
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♥ High top shoes
♥ Trip to Korea / Japan
♥ Loungefly Wallet
♥ Jacket
♥ Outerspace First Generation Cap
♥ SexyDiamond Parka
♥ SexyDiamond Mesh Cap
♥ Handphone with Wifi
♥ LG phone
♥ Supershow II
♥ Hyuk Necklace
♥ Hyuk White Leather Bracelet
♥ Up
♥ G-Force
♥ G.I Joe
♥ Obsessed
♥ Year One
♥ 500 Days of Summer
♥ Orphan
♥ The Proposal
♥ Aliens in the Attic
So many things are happening now already, too many changes and I'm getting cold feet. Out of a sudden, i've already finished my o levels, i'm going to prom, i'm going to graduate, i'm going to collect my results and i'm going to a whole new environment. i don't want to change. i don't want to graduate. i don't like to step into a whole new environment with no sense of security. so many changes are occuring now. i don't want to lose my friends. i know, for sure, once we graduate, we won't talk as much as before. i was really hurt, when he told me about their reactions. all i did and said was what i really meant. i thought that was what all friends did, girls getting excited and stuff. but they intepreted it wrongly. i really feel so hurt, i thought we were good friends. and what the shit, i'm crying cause of it. i seriously love all of them so much, when i treat people as my friends, i will protect and love them with all my might. i really do. the late night calls, the usual bickering, it's already what i'm used to and i dont want it to change. no matter how good new friends are, it's just different. i'm just crying way too much these days. i really hate all the changes that's happening now. why is everything going so fast, i can't catch up. don't wanna stay behind but i don't want to look forward either. can't i just stay in my own comfort zone, everything will just remain the same as it is before? i really hate this. fuck life. seriously. people are telling me that im thinking too much. how cna i not think so much? i dunno i think i need to calm down but. i really cant. im really afraid of the future
Why must my aim for going to yonsei to study be linked directly to my kpop fandom? That's only what you assumed, that im going to korea to study is because i wanna go see them. Do you really think that I'm THAT dumb? Use your ass to think also will know, by that age and time, they will no longer be popular and I will already grow out of this stupid fandom, or not. Okay, I won't say you're totally untrue about your assumption, my aim does has something to do with them. It's because of them, I'm more interested in the korean culture, are you not?
I'm really so sick and tired of your high and mighty talk. All your saying about drawing a very clear line between things and stuff. Like seriously, you do? Who's the one screaming their head off?
I really dunno what made me feel like this, I think i've changed unknowingly, I don't like this. I want things to go back the way it was, I hope I will change back after our trip together. Friends to me, are important. Although I don't know you that long, to me all of you are very precious to me even if I don't show it or don't talk to you that much. All of us are part of this special family, I can't do with losing any one of you and I really hate it when I see any one of you feels down and I can't help. I really sucks at expressing myself. I don't know how to let all of you know how much I love you guys.
I think I'm pms-ing. i fucking hate this.
ade, i miss you so much. i miss our roti prata suppers after chingay i miss hanging out and slacking during rehs i miss everything.
i hate it when time changes everything. really sucks. now, i miss 4a1. I DONT WANT US TO GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS. i want us to stay the way we are now. retaining together. i hope the class chalet will be a success. i want to be able to reminisce about it in the future be proud to say, i'm a forayeone-r
Ah, totally explains your reaction the other time. I'm a petty person, I do not forgive completely. ^^ It doesn't help that she's from the country that is on my top ten hated list. Seriously, [insert country's name] sluts are all english fail and annoying. Sluts. (: All three I know, all three are sluts. Hmmm.
祝你們永浴愛河，白頭偕老. If you even understand what it means, rofl.
DON'T HOTLINK. ASK BEFORE TAKING. I'll hunt you down with my chair I tell you...
CAN YOU TELL ME WHY IS HAE SO HOT. The teaser is like, asdf lkjasdf lkj asdflkj sdfk. Can you keep a secret? Throughout the teaser (and after seeing the teaser photos), I was actually thinking, _______________. Crazy right, what a teaser can do to you. Even shaking his hand looks damn hot. Not to say Siwon biting his glove and adjusting it while giving a killer stare. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Zhoumi, Henry and Kyuhyun is hot like !@#$%^ and Kyuhyun has long fingers. >=]
copied and pasted from LJ. read there for full post and icons!
had a really weird dream last night. i wore my heels and dressed really nicely, somehow i went back to school to the library for some literature thing that i wasn't involved, i merely accompanied someone there. after that, we have to move tables into the room. i was wearing heels and walking very steadily to and fro. -.- i remember faintly the existence of zhengning and jiahui and one of zhengning's friend (which i doubt is really her friend irl) in my dream.
somehow or rather, i met bryan chan and his group, wasn't very friendly i must say. then i saw another group of ppl but i can't remember who. joel and another friend was sitting at another table and i made him let me try what he was eating. omg crazy please.
i remember telling melissa in my dream that if i can even carry tables to and fro the library, i would have no problem walking in heels during prom. which doesn't really make sense. -.-
AH. stupid me.
oh, i dreamt that he replied to my fb status with a -.-
There are just so many things screwed up this year, can't I get any peace these days?
O levels are coming and I'm like so fucked up already. Then my dad just can't stop nagging, it's not like I wanted an ear infection, what's the point of telling me "You better eat your medicine otherwise if you're going for a surgery it's not my problem anymore". I'M EATING MY MEDICINE RIGHT? I'M EVEN EATING THOSE BIGASS ANTIBIOTICS ALREADY, what else do you want me to do? I'm the one taking O levels, not you. You don't even know what I do every second, what makes you think I didn't study? Just because you didn't see doesn't mean I didn't do it. Few days ago, Zero ridiculously scolded me for nothing and wanted me to get out of his life just because of a stupid facebook comment and because he's lost. Fuck, you're not the only one having a hard life, you don't see people asking their friends to get out of their life for no apparent reason. Even if they do, they didn't mean it, you did - at that point of time. Now there's this of Jaebum issues, what's wrong if them fucking korean netizens. Go do some charity and earn some good deeds for your life. Are you jealous that they got through the auditions with their talent and you didn't? THEN TOO BAD. Stop trying to dig out their past to force them to leave the entertaintment industry. There's a reason why they are up there and you're stuck in your home typing furiously away at your pathetic computer flaming them. Stop acting like a sourpuss. Digging up their past is one matter, what's with showing only their bad side? Be objective! You're being bias, so are you so intent on making Jaebum leave Korea? People have their bad times and they type stupid things. Why so picky. Right now, Jaebum's on the plane and all you can do is say you are regretful of what you guys have done. WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT. argh.
ps. sorry to zero for bringing it up again. it's not suppose to mean tht way. so if you take it the wrong way, then too bad. not in my best mood now to give a damn.
